Feeling so empty again

I just can't describe the pain that is in me.
It's digging deeper and deeper inside of me; drowning me to death.
If only I could die for a moment, and forget that I am alive;
forget that I am in agony, forget the person who has caused me this pain;
forget that I am sane...

It isn't my first time...
But still I haven't got used to it.
It still hurts like hell.
I wonder if it feels good to be there...(in hell)